After six months of severe chronic pain, having my body x-rayed, CT-scanned in numerous ways and waiting over two weeks for surgery approval, I have finally been approved for surgery.
Waiting takes such a large part of our lives! It’s a struggle to wait patiently: to find the peace of knowing that God is in the process, and to not become annoyed with people in the system who do their job without a sense of purpose. You know the type. “Don’t blame me. I am JUST doing my job”, and having no concept that how they do their job affects people’s lives. Waiting!
My Lenten commitment this year was to see every person that I come in contact with as gifts from God: to try to imagine what life is like through their eyes; to live out the Native American proverb of not judging until you have walked in the other person’s shoes. I have found that it has been very helpful in my waiting.
I have also found that in waiting, you can either be anxious or calm and still. I like to be still and know that God is God. One is obviously more empowering than the other. None of this makes waiting easier, but I am finding that even in waiting, we have options of how we can respond.
So I am waiting for my surgery to be scheduled; waiting to see if the surgery will fully diminish my pain; waiting for the next step in my healing process; and finding that physical and spiritual healing go hand in hand.
Thanks for all the prayers! I have sensed their empowerment, especially on days when the pain seems overpowering. I am so grateful to be a part of a caring, loving community.
Learning to wait,